Peace Returned

I'd been having a rough day...

so I decided to go for a drive.

Something led me to the cemetery.

I miss my dad...

my grandparents.

I keep telling myself

that they aren't there.

They're everywhere...

It somehow helps.

The most peaceful place on earth.

I cried. I even smiled...

was someone there to hear me?

Console me?

Maybe...

Peace returned.

<3

In Vain

So many thoughts flashing through my head

So many dreams passing through my mind

A heart bursting with desires

Or broken to millions of pieces

Unable to fulfill its destiny

Leaving me alone and unwanted

Chasing love in all the wrong places

Or burning my candle at both ends

If only you knew

If only you did

Then all this will not have been in vain...

Breathe... a preview!

I have finally gathered up the courage

(along with my therapist's encouragements)

to send a preview of my book/journal to a publisher!

Now here's my dilemma...

it's not a regular book,

it's not a comic book,

it's me on paper,

CHAOS and all!

Usually publishers go for one or the other...

But I am hopeful and positive

that there's a public out there for it.

Here's the first (PDF) preview... :)

Still Breathing

A hundred and thirty-five pages into my book...

I am not entirely done but my therapist has encouraged me to prepare something to be sent to a publisher soon.

Perhaps learning about rejection and the way I might react is what he is curious about... then again, so am I.

Accepting criticism of my work, not as a personal attack but constructive opinion. This is what I have to keep in mind, I know.

But so much of myself has gone into this journal... I might not help but take it a bit personally.

But I'll cross that bridge when I come to it.

Stevie Ray Vaughan

Another inspiration, another idol who passed away before his time.

I can listen to his music for hours! Stevie Ray Vaughan. 1954-1990.

More paintings...

If you asked me what I felt like
at this particular moment,
I wouldn't know what to say.
But a few things I can tell you
is that music INSPIRES me.
Movies open my horizons.
People fascinate me.
Art is my HAVEN.
I haven't found the love of my LIFE yet,
but I have known LOVE. In all its forms.
I have known loss, despair...
but I am still HERE.
I haven't given up.
I believe in LIFE.
I believe in ME.
I believe in HAPPINESS.
I believe that everything happens for a reason.

{PEACE}

-Janie

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Copyright Janie Michaud 2009

Movies about Depression

Here is a list of movies I have found to be related to depression and its connect symptoms...

Some I've watched (many times), some I haven't...

1. Girl, Interrupted
   
2. Prozac Nation
   
3. Reign Over Me
   
4. 28 Days
   
5. Walk the Line
   
6. Basketball Diaries
   
7. The Hours
   
8. American Beauty
   
9. Six Feet Under (TV)
   
10. Sideways
    
11. American Splendor
    
12. Punch-Drunk Love
    
13. Seven Pounds
    
14. About a Boy
    
15. Je vais bien, ne t'en fais pas
    
16. Van Gogh
    
17. Chaos Theory
    
18. Stay
    
19. Crazy/Beautiful
    
20. Sweet November
    
21. Hope Floats
    
22. Thirteen
    
23. Borderline
    
24. Donnie Darko
    
25. Secretary
    
26. Crash
    
27. Running With Scissors
28. 99 Francs
29. Gia

... and some books...

1. 12 mois sans intérêt
2. Prozac Nation
3. Bell Jar
4. Cut
5. Running With Scissors
6. Lucky
7. A Million Little Pieces
8. Girl, Interrupted
9. Dry: A Memoir
10. Smashed
11. Eat Pray Love
12. The Heroin Diaries

I will add more as the ideas come!

Doodling...

I have mentioned this before,

how a cubicle is like to me.

This sums it up pretty well.

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