BREATHE... a journal

This blog is a preview for my memoirs. Sort of a journal. I like to post some of my ideas and inspirations here.

The journal has about 145 pages written so far and will also feature some of my artwork and pictures. Not a book. Not a comic book. CHAOTIC, like me.

As you can see, I am not writing in a typical format. The pages might look like poems but it's simply because I like things short and simple. Clean.

If you have ever experienced depression, you know that reading a book with pages filled with words is discouraging and you quickly lose interest...

BREATHE focuses on what I have learned and experienced so far, after the loss of my dad and the depression that followed.
I started writing to vent, but it has led me to knowing myself a bit better-- my limits, my dreams.

-Janie

Friday, September 12, 2008

Hypergraphia

Oh yeah, it's an actual medical term!
It can be explained as followed:
The driving compulsion and overwhelming urge to write/create.
The opposite of writer's block.
Described as a temporal lobe epilepsy.
Also known as the midnight disease.
From what I have read and can understand,
many artists in history were affected by it
and it's opposite effect:
hypographia, aka the writer's block.

Sylvia Plath. Stephen King. Vincent Van Gogh.
Byron. Dante. Molière. Edgar Allen Poe.

People filling page after page of writing, doodling, music.
Unable to slow down their minds.
Not wanting to forget a thing.

Is it a gift or a curse?

To a perfectionist like me,
it could feel like a curse.
The feeling of writing nothing but nonsense.
Thinking it's worthless.

...

Ok, maybe I don't have Hypergraphia
But I'm still addicted to notebooks!
I can't leave home without one.
There's one my bedside table,
One on my desk...

Dozens of pens... EVERYWHERE!
>_<;

Then again, it's better to be inspired...
than to be left empty.